In my mind's eye

Next month signals a move outside my circle of confidence. The new job is slightly off my supposed career track. This is a huge deal for someone who, a few years back, would have cringed at the thought of taking a drastic turn.

The idea scares me at times but life is about managing change and taking on challenges. ‘I wonder ifs’ fill my head. So what? No one is supposed to have all the right answers. That is God’s department.

Flashback several years. I was waiting for the HRs update on my application for the consulting group of this prominent auditing firm. Less than two weeks of waiting was too long for a neophyte in the corporate jungle. So, I made a hasty decision of requesting HR to pull out my application from the consulting group and forward instead to the audit group.

To this day, I wonder if that was a crucial fork in my career. Or maybe it was a good move because eventually, I was able work with the corporate finance department of another company. And yes, I was a newbie. It was okay to make mistakes. What’s that line? “It’s okay. I am young. My heart can take it.”

Yet, I feel, I am back where I started. At the back of my head wondering if this move will help my career in the long run.

I know that I want to leave my current post. I know that I still like working for this company. Taking on this job seems to be most logical step to take. Did I just make a decision based on the process of elimination? No. This new post is manna from heaven. God’s provision at the right time. The fruit of months of constant prayers.

So let me just take my steps as far as what He allows me to see. I can’t know it all. That is God’s expertise. And that more than works for me.

“No eye has seen. No ear has heard. No mind has known what God has in store…”